At the heart of a lot of things right now for me,
The fear of leading the way in my life,
and owning what I do — and don’t want.
You see it’s been easy to follow all these years.
To react to what has come my way.
To deflect, dodge, adapt and deal with.
And to blame others — when it doesn’t go my way.
I know it’s better to rely on myself
and not have too many others truly rely on me.
And it’s exhausting.